Who would have known that one call on my cell phone, while shopping at Costco, would change my life forever...

Four years ago today, my life changed forever. I had just finished paying for my purchase at Costco when my cell phone rang. I wasn't expecting any calls, nor did I recognize the number, and yet I still answered it. I don't want to think about what would have happened had I not answered it. You see a baby had just been born, and that baby needed a home, and I answered the call.

Four years ago today, JayJay was born. She was born into a world of problems and chaos, and I was to be her shelter. She did not have an easy start to life. She was born addicted to drugs... Her pediatrician fought to keep her in the hospital for a few days so that she could be surrounded by medical staff while she went through her withdrawals. I did not get to see her until day three, which is when she was released from the hospital. She was so small, at 5lbs her baby blankets engulfed her. I was not prepared but thank goodness we have a local Babies-R-Us that sells Preemie clothing and supplies. Not allot, so I was at the mercy of buying what they had. I look at those little outfits now, and laugh they won't even fit the baby dolls that she now plays with.

I do not have any idea where the past four years have gone. That scares me, part of me secretly wants it all back. I would give anything to hold that 5lb baby in my arms again. To sit in the rocking chair with her until she fell asleep. To be doing dishes and have her in her swing next to me babbling away. But I am thankful for now, for today, and for what tomorrow may bring her. I hope and pray that she will remember only the good from her childhood, and none of the bad.

Happy Birthday JayJay, your mommy and daddy love you more than you will ever know. We will always be your shelter. Whatever life may throw at you, we will be your constant. May you have a wonderful year ahead of you.